I write this, today, to give someone out there hope. I’m putting myself in a very vulnerable place. I believe this is what God wants me to share with you.
You are not alone.
I sit here with my Bible open and tears running town my cheeks. I can barely see what I’m typing. I also want to say that I am not writing this for you to feel sorry for me. This is just something I must share.
This past week has been challenging for me. I believe the devil is trying his best to bring me down. I have been feeling a lot of negative feelings, but mostly that I’m not important.
Have you ever been uninvited?
Well I have. I look around and see others doing things and hanging out with their “friends.” I am not one of them. I’m the one that hears that someone gets together or sees them together on Facebook. I’m the one that feels that no one wants to be my friend. Why? I don’t really know. Is there something wrong with me? Do I smell funny? Did I do something or say something, even though I can’t figure out what it is?
Part of my daily verses today really spoke to me. “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke fits perfectly, and the burden I give you is light.”
The part that really stood out to me was “Let me teach you.” It’s as if those words enlarged in my Bible as I read them. Jesus wants us to “let him.” He wants us to come to Him and teach us His Word. He wants to show us His love.
You know, I normally am not too bothered by these feelings of loneliness and not being invited to things. I can push it aside and put my hope in God. But, for some reason, this has been a struggle.
Why am I so depressed? Why this turmoil within me? Put your hope in God, for I will still praise Him, my Savior and my God!
I believe that some of what I’m going through is a reminder that this earth we live in is only temporary. God doesn’t want us getting too comfortable. He also doesn’t want us to forget about Him.
Hear my prayer, O Lord!
Listen to my cries for help!
Don’t ignore my tears.
For I am your guest –
a traveler passing through,
as my ancestors were before me.
Spare me so I can smile again
before I am gone and exist no more.
Go to Jesus! Let Him teach you! Grab your Bible and be ready to learn His Truth and Love.